Stage 1: Passed (22nd May 2009)
Stage 2: Passed (14th June 2009)
Stage 3: Pending...
Stage 4: Pending...

佛祖,请求您保佑我一切顺利,让我达成那小小的愿望。。

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

暧昧

Personal Display Message> 拜一:“哥。。。”

Personal Display Message> 拜二:“哥。。。我想。。。”

Amanda:“erm...你的Personal Display Message很暧昧叻。。哈哈哈哈”

:“Can you please define what you mean by 暧昧?哈哈。。”

Amanda:“I just feel it is 暧昧。”

:“I know,but what you mean by 暧昧?There are a lot of meanings to 暧昧,你指的是哪一个?一,模糊;二,关系不可告人;三,不是情侣,关系却很亲密。。which one?By the way, the sentence isn't complete yet..LOL~~”

Amanda:“So what's the complete sentence?”

:“I will reveal it tomorrow”

Amanda:“But I'm not online tomorrow, you SMS me the full sentence...”

:“ok.. hehe...”

Personal Display Message> 拜三:“哥。。。我想。。。一拳pok过去给你!!!哈哈!!!”

SMS to Amanda:"完整的句子是(哥。。。我想。。。一拳pok过去给你!!!哈哈!!!)用个平常心去面对世界,会让世界看得更简单美丽。心思越复杂,人也可能变得更有心计。"

Amanda Replied SMS: "Funny lah u.. So unexpected."

What I'm trying to say is my Display Message was supposed to be very innocent and nothing more than that. But using a sophisticated mind with wild imaginations, people can think too far, diverting from the initial intentions. It is undeniable that human beings have sophisticated minds. Hence sometimes it is hard to think in a simple way. Some people keep preaching to use 平常心 (Simple mind) to see the world and to handle situations, but from this example (there are a lot of other examples which I don't really want to list them all out) shows that a simple thought can be seen as evil intentions by others who have a complicated mind even though they think they use a simple mind to treat people.

Sometimes, having such a sophisticated mind, people can turn to be very scheming and scary too. 有时以一个平常心去对待世界未必是件坏事。。。

The moral of the story:
"Don't jump to conclusion about something or someone or somebody's intentions/motives before you really know what is going on.."

Because if you do jump to conclusion, then it is just like you have given the person a death sentence. 还不知道事实就已经判了我死刑。。。

*ok, gotta run now, need to chase the shuttle bus to go back...

PS: Thank your Charmaine for giving me a bottle of Pringles even though I didn't buy your product.. Hehe...

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

发不出的SMS(歌词Uploaded)

好久没有和他联络了,很想寄个短讯和他聊聊。到了下个月底,就已经是一年完全没好好儿像之前那样聊天说话了。原因到底是什么,虽然他说过,我始终难以理解,只知道是他怪我就对了,可是他怪我的理由,不管是我还是我其他的好友或是他的朋友都无法明白。

短讯写好了。读一读,看是否有打错字,句子是否有语病。看了三遍,应该没问题。可以摁‘发送’了吗?很像不可以,这些话,我很像没资格对他说,他只会说我啰嗦,浪费他的时间。算了吧,还是删除比较安全。

过后,又写了个短讯。看了又看,应该可以发出去了吧。但是,这些问题,以我的地位,很像没有权力去问。问了,他不会答的,不是白问吗,也会得罪他。这SMS也不适合发给他。

这个短讯呢?可以发出去吗?和他说这些事情有什么用?对他来说,可能都只是废话,crap而已。把这笑话发给他可以吗?等下他会不会说我以为我自己是谁,做什么寄这种lame的东西打扰他?

算了吧。与其写这么长的SMS,换来的可能只是像以前那样的沉默,有什么用,受伤的还是自己,自己受伤就算了,还让他不开心,那就真的不好了。就写个短的吧。这一句问候的话,应该谁都可以对他说吧?他应该不会觉得奇怪还是什么的吧。好吧,就摁‘发送’吧。他过后回不回也没什么关系啦。反正只是个废废问候的话而已。

前天我说过,我终于明白自己要的是什么。但是要做到,需要很多勇气,问题是,大多的勇气,在这一年以来都因发生的一切慢慢地消逝了。

这次发出的SMS,用的是我最后剩下那一点点的勇气了。虽然有回应,但是也证明了一点,我真的不懂得如何和这个朋友说话了,因为我完全不知道有什么话可以对他说。

想和你说,
却说不出,
想和你聊,
却没话题,
为何这样,
我不知道,
只能在这部落格里说,对不起。。。


张栋梁 - 我们都有错
作词:陈颖见 @口袋音乐 作曲:陈颖见 @口袋音乐
今晚夜色正浓 我开车慢慢行走
走进一片深秋
地铁出口 起了一座灰色大楼
那么多窗口 那么多灯火
喝酒的人们嬉笑走过

在你离开之后
我像个忙碌街头 忙着擦肩而过
身边的人 稍作了停留 又无影无踪
打烊了以后 夜里安静停泊

我们是不是变得太懦弱
该面对的时候 掉头就走
我们坚持什么 要的是什么
为何 烙了一身伤口

我们是不是变得太薄弱
该解救的时候却一再沉沦
本来相濡以沫 却变成寂寞
我们都有错

再见还是朋友
我们却连个问候 多年后才开口
咖啡店里 你看起来似乎过得不错
可是为什么 说着说着
眼泪开始坠落

我们是不是变得太执着
该快乐的时候铐上枷锁
像夜行的班车 我们各奔西东
安静的消失在夜空

假如分开会是一种解脱
为何直到现在还不断回头
本来相濡以沫 却变成寂寞
我们都有错
我们都没有错 也许只是我

Sunday, July 5, 2009

遇到


Darling小俊介绍了这首歌。其实不是新歌,而是个儿蛮久的歌,但是很好听。听着听着,也终于让我明白了一些之前参透不了的事情。

和大家分享一下这首让我这几个星期以来从早听到晚的唯一一首歌。。。遇到

你身上专属的陌生味道
是我确认你存在的目标
不用来回张望了直到
今世我们相隔著一个街角

这么久了,我还是可以看到
感觉得到你对我的重要
不会被天黑天亮打扰
你每一次的温柔我都想炫耀

我们绕了这么一圈才遇到
我比谁都更明白你的重要
这么久了我就决定了
决定了你的手我握了不会放掉

我们绕了这么一圈才遇到
我答应自己不再庸人自扰
因为我要的我自己知道
只要你的肩膀依然让我靠

Related links:
- I want you to make "10 promises" for me

Saturday, July 4, 2009

I want you to make "10 Promises" for me


I want you to make "10 Promises" for me and keep them, if you can't then I will not stay by your side anymore.

1. Listen carefully to what I have to say.
2. Trust me, I'm always on your side.
3. Play with me a lot.
4. Don't forget that I have feelings too.
5. Let's never fight, because someday I will win.
6. If I don't obey you, it's because I have a good reason to.
7. You have school & friends, but for me, I have only you.
8. Stay as my bestfriend even when I'm old.
9. I will live for only this long, let's make every moment count.
10. Never forget our times together, please keep this in mind. So when my time comes, please be by my side.

Friday, July 3, 2009

信任:从何而来,为何而毁。。

今天到街上去剪头发要负钱时,
从口袋里拿出了一叠一块钱钞票交给那位大叔。
他一拿到钱时,数都没数,就直接塞进了钱柜的小洞里。

他为何那么信任我?
他不怕我会骗他的钱吗?
剪发费一共是七块,
没出门前我已经算好了放进口袋,
但是我可没想到他数都没数就收下了。
虽然七块说多不多,
但是还是他老人家辛辛苦苦赚来的血汗钱呀,
难道他不在意?还是他信任我?

如果说他不在意,
很像不可能咧,
毕竟他得还小店面的租金。

如果说他信任我,
那么,我想知道他为何会信任我?
我们毕竟对彼此都很陌生,
我不知道他家庭背景,
他也不知道我到底是谁,
我只知道他会剪发,
他只知道我是顾客,
所以信任从何而来?

连我自己的朋友都对我存有少许的猜疑,
对我做的事有所怀疑,
那么为何一个不认识我的大叔会信任我呢?
这一点都不逻辑,
到底是怎么一回事?

为什么会有信任,
信任又为什么会被摧毁?
在什么情况下,做了什么,发生了什么会被毁灭而消失?

信任重要吗?
没了信任要怎么办?
要怎么做才能有永恒的信任,真正的信任?

Related Link:
- Trust: A Bridge To The Heart
- It is so difficult to trust others...

说话,责任

最近老是听到有人说‘责任’这个词。

我突然想问:

如果一个人之前说出了某些话,然后却不算数,那么这是不是不负责任

如果一个人把一切都说好了,但过后又不顾他人感受把一切都更改,这算不算不负责任

如果一个人做出了某些决定,过后又发现是错的,却死都当成什么都没做错过,那么这算不算是没有责任感?

你们认为,能做出这些事的人,是不是没对自己的人格负责,没对自己说过的话负责,没对自己做出的事负责,没对身边关心自己的人负责任

是不是很没责任感呢?

有个朋友问我:
“一个一心想忘记过去的人,
是真的想往前走,
还是他不敢为自己所做过的错误负责?”

*******************************************
"We will all remember our past,
because from it,
we learn to move on"

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

礼物论:送心意还是价值?

在大众书局逛时,看见他们又以底价卖出旧书,一桌的书,一律打70%折扣!!

自己走了过去,看一看有没有什么好书可买。也在那儿翻阅那些旧书的是位auntie。看她穿着还有绑在腰前的那小包包,应该是做sales的吧。地上的篮子,都是她选的书籍,有烹饪的,食谱,室内设计,词典,等等。她把大众的员工叫来问,是否能把那一篮的书给扣着,因为她不想当天买下,想改天才买,然后也要求给多一点折扣。

Auntie:这些书,你可以帮我先收着吗?我改天才来买,我不想现在买。

大众:这一篮都是你要的呀?如果你真的是有诚意想买的,我是可以帮你先收着,然后你过几天才来买。有回来买是最好啦。

Auntie:是是,我是真的要这些书的,但是我还没选完,我不想买一点一点,我是想买来送人的。

大众:蛤?!送人?这些都是旧书,而且有些也有点儿损坏,所以才以底价卖出。

Auntie:我知道,我尽量选比较好的。再说我送书又不是送价钱,是送书里的含义嘛,你说是不是,最重要是书里的内容嘛。我买这么多,你可以给多点折扣吗?

大众:这要问Manager,但她今天不在,我没权力做决定。反正你是改天才来,你当时才问她拿多点折扣吧。

Auntie:你也要帮我说点话吗,你说一句好过我说十句咯。。

Erm…Auntie呀。。你把自己讲到这么伟大似的,什么送书是送含义不是送价值,但是天知道,地知道,大众员工知道,我知道,你自己良心也知道,说到底,你不就只是想捡便宜而已吗!说真的,你还真是有点cheap咯!!

把书送出去时,你的朋友,亲人都会说你人真好,有心买礼物送人。大家都把你当好人看,但是你自己内心知道你自己有几cheap吧!!做人做到这么假。。。

我自己是有个阿姨也是这样,看见PDI以底价卖出旧衣,本来是RM79.90的衣,现在都只是RM5。她买了很多件,然后送了给侄儿侄女,又大声在别人面前说自己几有心思,买了名牌货给他们。哦my天,我还真是没眼看,也没耳听,只是静静看电视,不想拆穿她。

我本人不是个常买礼物送人的人。只有某些在我心里有某种地位的人才会让我花心思去想得买什么礼物,得怎么包装,得怎么送礼。我不是不想花钱花时间,而是我觉得若要送礼,就要有诚意,如果只是for show,那样我宁愿不送,因为我只是在欺骗收礼的人,也在欺骗自己还有知道我有送礼物的人,我才不会随随便便去找个东西去送给人,因为心里都不是真的想送,或是完全没送礼的心意。我不喜欢做人做到这么假。

俗语说‘物轻情义重’,礼物不需要价值连城,只要是真心诚意想送就可以了。如果我真的想送位朋友礼物,就算那份礼物是有点儿贵,但如果他会喜欢,我不会介意花多一点钱去买,若不是买的,也会花多一点儿时间去做(但说真的,我的手工不好咯。。哈哈。。所以曾收到我手工礼物的人请见谅)。

你们又是在什么情况下送别人礼物的呢?是真心诚意想送还是因为某某原因才送?如果完全没有心意去送,你还会送吗?

Monday, June 29, 2009

Don’t Spit At Me And Then Be Nice To Me


Have you ever met a person that would say so many hurtful things in very harsh tones to insult you?

Things said can be so disrespectful, so insulting. The way the person talks to you is as though you are some sort of worthless being without self value. Basically, the person’s way of speaking is basically just implying that you are a useless garbage unworthy of respect.

Surprisingly, when the person needs your help, the person can suddenly smile at you, giving you a pad at the back or even holding your arms while asking whether you can help the person in some matters.

Amazing? Surprising? Astonishing? What’s the suitable word that can be used to describe this situation? I seriously have no idea. Even if I go through the thesaurus, I doubt I can actually find a suitable word or even a collection of words to describe the person’s feelings when caught in such a situation.

It’s basically like the title which I’ve given, it’s as though somebody just spit at you but later become so friendly to you as if both of you are the best of pals. The person can actually act as though no insults were thrown at the victim at all, as though nothing had happen an hour ago. Does the person have short term memory or selective memory?

I really can’t comprehend what is going on. If someone spit at you earlier and then suddenly ask for your help, would you help? If your answer is no, then why are you doing such things to others? Can you please explain? By the way, this situation did not only happen once, but almost every week.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

水石论

水乃天地万物之柔,
地乃天地万物之刚。。”

这两句话有什么意思呢?

请问,水和石,哪一物比较硬呢?

有人会说是石头。如果石头真的比较硬的话,那么为何水又能把石头磨平呢?

如果以武术的观点来看以上两句话,大家就能看出以柔克刚的道理,也就是太极拳和永春拳的基础。

如果以人生观点来探讨这两句话,那么这两句话就是用来提醒大家,做事不要操之过急,别太急性子。水虽能把石头磨平,但这也不是一朝一夕的事。

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Transformer 2: Revenge of the Fallen @ Jusco


I went down to Jusco TC today to watch the much publicized Transformer 2: Revenge of the Fallen by myself today. Once I reached the cinema entrance, I saw an extremely long queue. Normally I would just walk away but since Transformers is one of my all time favorite cartoon series, so I decided to join the queue.From the place I took the photo, I can't even see the ticket counter!! LOL~~ After 1 hour of lining up, I finally got myself to the ticket counter! And then... Tadaaa... A ticket for myself.If you thought Terminator Salvation was a good movie that deserves to be watched twice, then you should really watch Transformer 2 at least three times!!! That's how good it is!

The graphics of the movie is amazing, I totally like the robots. The battles between the Autobots and the Decepticons were extremely exciting and realistic. It reminds me of the time when I first watched the Transformers cartoon series. If you are a cartoon fanatic like me, you should know that there is a new Transformer series on TV nowadays, but frankly, the new one isn't as nice as the old series.

A memorable scene was when Optimus was out-numbered by the Decepticons yet he stood his ground to protect Sam until he was killed by Megatron. Even though Sam tried so hard to work for a normal life away from the robots until he ignored the Autobots, but Optimus still protected Sam as friend to the extend of giving up his own life! That was seriously amazing and touching!!

Every battle scene between the Autobots and the Decepticons was extremely nice. The only disappointing moment for me was the final battle in the end between Megatron & The Fallen with Optimus. Megatron has always been the Decepticon's leader which is on par with Optimus yet he was so easily defeated in the end. The Fallen who was one of the initial Primes and Megatron's Master was also defeated within seconds. I was hoping that battle to have more punch!! But nonetheless, the entire movie in general was great!!!!

Quote of the day:-
"We will all remember our past,
because from it,
we learn to move on"
Optimus Prime