伤心的夜晚

突然发现伤心难过时，原来没有人可以陪我谈心。。。
适合的人，我不想打扰，怕会烦到他。。。
其他人，却不适合知道某些事。。。
孤单。。。。。。

Little Words - 冷漠

冷漠，有时候并不是无情，只是一种避免被伤害和伤害他人的工具。。
Adapted from Darling 小俊's words

Jieun, the Korean Counsellor

Ted - He has a pool in his house

Jieun - Good, then why don't you go swimming with Bon?

Ted - No I can't, if he throw me into the water, I will sink faster than Titanic!!

Jieun - Oh, don't worry, everybody sinks faster than Titanic, it took Titanic a few hours to sink..

LOL~~ Funny right?! So, if you are down, you should really talk to this Korean girl who will cheer you up with her funny jokes!! hehe...

*This is a very old conversation I had with her..

HanLey Dear's House

Crashed at my dear's place this afternoon! Long time no c him liao!! He looked a little different, but still as nice as always.. hehe... The blur blur guy in the pic is kYi.. I was on the bed hugging the swan feather pillow!! Real comfortable!! Haha.. kJin was just beside me...

启义

“天天经历一样的事,天天和一样的人见面,即使这很平凡,但只要是自己喜欢遇上的人或事,再平凡都是精彩的” – 启义 （The Gourmet’s Place）

我真的很喜欢启义说的这句话，一点都没错！

你们想想看，自己是不是有时常都在做的事，还是看到某些人，却没感到厌倦，反而感到很开心，也很希望再去做，再见到。

人的心情就是那么的奇怪，对某些事没兴趣，不喜欢，但对某些事却爱不释手。到底是什么在心里做出了喜欢于不喜欢的决定呢？

为什么我们会不喜欢某些事物，但别人却喜欢？

为什么我们会对某些人有好感，但别人却没有？

到底是什么决定了一切？是一生出来就已经对一切做出了这些抉择吗？

为什么不同的人对同样的事物却能有不同的感觉于心情？我们不同之处在哪儿？ Can c wat I c in the pic?

Dark Mirror

Woo!!! I got back my sick PS2 which had a broken video cable and worn out lens cable. Now starting to play my new first shooter game, Dark Mirror.

I don't know why, but I'm not very good at first shooter game as in I always get dizzy after playing for an hour. But it is just very fun! As though you are the shooter holding the gun, going around to shoot the bad guys! How can you not like it.

Hehe.. you also get an adrenaline rush when few people surrounding you shooting at you. Nice game, Nice game!! hehehe..

JB Automobile Show

This is the NEW Honda City... Looks a little 'robotic' don't you think so? Not bad right! hehe... Oh yea, the back looks like BMW 3 Series, very similar brake lights... I didn't manage to take pics of the back coz too many people were standing there... Even the front also I didn't take the whole pic as there were strangers sitting in the car, and I don't wish to take their photo.. hahaha..
This is a good car if you go picnic... There is a 17" TV at the back with Dolby Surround System... ahaha... So you can never get bored while picnic'ing

Which will be the winner? The Mercedez AMG or the Porcshe? I think the Porsche.. But I love to own a AMG.. hahah

The new Camry which most are familiar with... Out in the market quite sometime liao actually.. not very new... This design is not bad hor... But I like the new Accord better..

The usual Peanut shape lights from Mercedez... Duno wat class is this.. E?

I guess this is one of the most powerful cars in the show... The BMW ... It's very hightech too.. It has an onboard computer which controls the car.. But in a race, I guess it's rather useless... Why? The computer's fault lor... If you wana race, as in drive very fast... You need to take sometime to configure the car.. yea yea, u need to configure... traction system- OFF, max rev- UP, etc etc... there is a nob with button which acts as a cursor just beside the gear... By the time you are done configuring... I guess the other car has already reached the finish-line... hehee.. really, i'm guessing u need around 7-10 min to configure if you use it for the first time.. hahahaha

Quantum of Solace

Bet most of you've already watched this new James Bond movie. What do you think of it?

Just as any other Bond movie, there are tonnes of action in it, fights, bombs, gun fire. But there is something missing don't you guys think so? Have you all figured it out? No? The gadgets!! Did you not notice there was no hi-tech gadgets? Laser watch.. Armour re-enforced Aston Martin which comes with rocket launchers and stealth mode? Pens which are also bombs after you click it once. This was a pure manual kind of fist fight and gun fire version of the Bond movie. One thing about Bond movie that never change is his appeal to the sexy babes! I wonder how he manage to attract so many sexy babes! hahaha...

I kind of like the twist of the story where this unknown organization actually has more power than the MI5 or the CIA. They even owned M's bodyguard which tried to assasinate her.

Cool... The only down part about this movie to me is the story was left hanging. So, what is this organization actually? Right? Any of you got the answer? Green was just a member I guess, there should be some kind of master mind behind it right? So? No answer?! haha... I wonder whether there will be a sequel to this.

三十六录打狗棒法

丐帮的三十六录打狗棒法乃丐帮祖师爷所创。

从丐帮开创以来，这套棒法只传帮主不传他人。这棒法精妙无比，每当丐帮遇到危机时，丐帮帮主都会使出这套棒法，就能均压群雄，化险为夷。

如果要把这棒法发挥到最高境界，就不能没招都太实力，太快。要在适当的时候快，在别的时候慢，才能发挥出这棒法最大的威力。

虽然名叫打狗棒，其实是用来打人，把坏人当恶狗来打。这种感觉应该很爽的吧！哈哈。。。

突然间，我有点冲动，很想那枝棍，使出打狗棒法，打一打身边的坏人，把他们当畜生来打。。。

What's this link?

I mean these links... How did you make them appear there?

Ip Man - Great Kungfu Movie

I went down to Jusco TC today to watch 'Ip Man' alone, the movie about Bruce Lee's Shifu, a WingChun Fist Master.

Since I love martial arts, so this movie was great for me!! It has the exciting action movements I was hoping for. Story was great!!! The show was not all about punching and kicking but there was a pinch of comedy thrown into it too which makes it a wonderful movie to enjoy whether it is alone or with friends!! So, go catch it if you like action-packed movie or martial arts.

Everyone knows Bruce Lee right? You know how good he is in martial arts. Some people say he never lost before because his movements is so fast, strong and accurate. But then, people also say the only person who ever beat Bruce Lee is actually his Shifu Ip Man. Bruce Lee's kungfu is also the WingChun Fist style, until he invented his own style which is the JitKun-do..

After the movie, I went to shop around Jusco, went to Hush Puppies, Nike, Jusco supermarket... Woo woo.. not bad not bad... Hehe..

Some of you maybe wondering why I went to the movies alone.

Well, there are two possible reasons:

1. I couldn't find anybody coz everyone is busy with something, no transport, not around etc.

2. I'm emo'ing, I don't want to see anybody, I just want to be alone trying to cheer myself up.

Hehe... guess it is which one?

见不见

不想见到的人，
却偏偏让我见到了。。

没有想过要见到的人，
却老是MSN我说要见面，
但是我也没兴趣去见,
既然我已经暗示过了，
那就自己明白咯，
别让我说得太明白，
会伤人心的。。

自己心里想见到的人，
却没什么机会见，
当有机会是，
却又不敢见。。

真是矛盾！

你想见我，我不想见。
我不想见，却被我见。
我想见时，却没得见。
有机会见，却不敢见。

见不见？
该不该见？

是见还是不见？

我见不见你想见我。

你见不见我想见你。

是不见了才见，
还是见了又见？

见于不见有何分别？

Lost Christmas

Christmas Eve, I went to sleep early around 11pm. Was a little sleepy anyway. Then, I received a few SMS thru out the early morning but only noticed it when my pillow fell off my bed around 4am.

Replied some SMS and was awake since then. Watch 10 episodes of Naruto Shippuuden. Looking at Naruto, Sora, Sai & Gaara reminded me about myself. Then I watched Resident Evil: Denegeration. Great animated movie. Graphic was nice and story was nice too. Just like it how Leon move, his shooting skills are great!

Duno y I'm a little emo since i received SMS from somebody. Duno y. Just feel emo.

Wanted to go out watch movie just now but then it's raining, made me so lazy to go out even though I've bathe, changed, took the keys and everything, just about to walk out then I just stopped and went back to room and lay down on bed.

A little lost on this Christmas. Why? I duno... Something missing? Maybe... Lost some feelings? Maybe... Something doesn't feel right... I just don't know what..

Santa in Pelangi

Oh yea, Santa has arrived at Pelangi!!! So, go catch him!! You can sit on his lap!! hehehe...

Santa "Wow, sit gently...you are heavy..."
Ted "Well, I'm a big boy Santa.. hehe.. by the way, be nice!! I know u r fake, u r not the real Santa... I'm just doing this for fun!!! So be nice!!!"
Santa "Ok.. ok... relax dude.. So what do you want for Xmas?"
Ted "I'm not sure... I've been thinking for quite sometime, but I've no idea what I want yet... Not sure whether a big Teddy Bear or a very very big Teddy Bear"
Santa "Hohoho.. You like Teddy Bears"
Ted "Yea, I love them, I collect them... I can hug them when I'm alone.. So what do you think?"
Santa "Well as long as you have been a nice boy for the year, you can get whatever you want... "
Ted "Oh really...? Thanks, Santa!!!"
Santa "Now, that's RM5 for the session"
Ted "What?!!?! I need to pay?"
Santa "Of coz!! What do you expect?!!?!"
Ted "Naaaa... I show you middle finger better!!! Hahaha... Blueeekkkk!!!"

*NOTE: The conversation above is purely fictional... It never took place... But yes, the Santa is there and you can sit on his lap if you want to... You can even take a pic with him which is RM5 that goes to charity... Enjoy Xmas!! hehhee..

From Malaysia To Singapore Through CIQ

Well, I finally experienced it myself, the journey from Malaysia to Singapore through the new CIQ complex. To my surprise, it was a decent journey, unlike what has been reported.

Clearance was fast as usual due to our e-passport. But there is a little waiting to do after that.

In the past, I would just walk across the causeway without waiting for the busses. But as the distance is too great this time, I waited for the bus.

There were 24 bus depot allowing a lot of busses to dock at the same time for passengers to board which is great! But unfortunately, even with so many bus depot, but I guess the bus companies aren't able to provide so many busses at a single moment, hence we still had to queue up for the busses which took some time.

But then, I'm not complaining. Why?

1. Now, at least, you can queue, unlike the old custom building where there isn't any line at all, there is just one big group of people pushing here and there and not moving.

2. As the platforms were spacious, queuing up isn't uncomfortable at all like last time. You can breathe easily. Even better than the Woodlands bus depot which you have to inhale the bus exhaust fumes. In the new CIQ, the ventilation system is great and prevents the accumulation of the fumes making your queue there less annoying.

In a whole, the experience wasn't bad... Hehe...

Pre-Xmas Celebration at CS

There was a pre-Xmas celebration at CS on 21st Dec... There were choir performance (A little lack of practice, key was out... tempo a little off), electric guitar performance (AMAZING!!!!!), hip-hop dance too (the kids were cute in doing the locking and floor actions!!!) hahaha... cool!!... But then, I was hungry, so I decided to grab a meal, but then what to eat? hehehe.... Ah.. Kenny Roger's.. long time no eat that, and I can get a corner seat to watch the performance while enjoying the nice meal.. heheWinter, one of the four season drinks, I ordered.. not bad, just that the icecream was supposed to be vanilla instead of strawberry.... It's called Winter mar.. .supposed to be white, but then they ran out of vanilla icecream.. hehe
TTangy Chicken and Pasta, top with sweet sour sauce.. yummy, I like this... the black pepper quarter chicken is still as yummy as usual.. hehhehe

Poisonous Chocolate Found On The Desk

One morning, I found two chocolate candies on my desk. The first thing that came to my mind was, this must be the gift from a friend who has decided to leave the place for his home back in China. So, I happily unwrapped the chocolates and ate them. Yummy!!! Delicious imported chocolates!!!

As more people arrived and found chocolates on their desk, some started to walk around asking “Do you know who left these on my desk?” Nobody knew actually, and they never suspected my friend because he was secretive about his decision to leave.

Mr. B “Teddy, do you know who left these chocolates on my desk?”
Teddy “No idea…” *Actually I knew… Hehe*
Ms. A came by…
Mr. B “Do you know who gave these?”
Ms. A “I think it must be from XP”
Mr. B “I don’t think so, he is so close to Teddy, if he gave these, he would surely give Teddy, but Teddy doesn’t have it”
Ms. A “That’s funny… But it should be ok to eat them I guess, I don’t think there is poison in it”
Mr. B “I think I’d better not eat them, I don’t even know where did these come from, who knows if someone has put something inside them” and Mr. B threw the chocolates away.

Hmmm… Can my dear readers help interpret about what has just happened? I would really love to know. What do you guys think? I’m a little confused about the reaction given when some people found chocolates left on their desk especially the one that threw the chocolates away. Why did he do that? Did he do too many guilty stuffs that he is afraid?

He is always right?!

I was talking to a friend about what kind of people she hates to work with and I found that we share the same view; the kind of people who says we must do it this way and do that another way, sets all the rules, but then when you look at them, they will break all the rules and do things in ways which they please.

Such people can only be described as inconsiderate. I can’t find another more suitable word at the moment. But my dear readers are welcome to give me some ideas on suitable adjective to describe such people.

The person told me that when I operate the machine, I must make sure that the water level in the waste bottle of the machine be within the acceptable range, not too much and not too little because the machine will be spoiled if we neglect that point. He even said that he often noticed others who don’t really care about this and called them ‘stupid people’.

But when I saw him using the machine, he didn’t even bother to check the water level and switched the machine on. The water level was at that moment over the maximum level. What happened to all the rules to follow when using the machine? Are they only applicable to others using the machine and not him?

He says when we use anything; we should put them back to where we got them so everyone can get it easily and do their work. But when he took the stuffs, he just leaves it at wherever he likes and caused others to spend more than an hour to scout for the stuffs before we can start our work.

How come everybody must follow a set of rules so he can do his work properly while he can’t follow the set of rules he set so that we can enjoy an easy life too? What kind of person is he? Seems like whatever others do is always wrong while whatever he does is always right. Why ah?

Custom, Immigration and Quarantine (CIQ) Complex

The new CIQ complex which cost RM1.3billion was finally operational on last Tuesday night, 16th Dec 2008. And I've read a lot of news about the CIQ complex from both the Malaysia and Singapore news. But I've only been able to experience the CIQ complex myself yesterday.

Upon arrival at the complex from Woodlands Immigration by bus as I read that it is impossible to walk to the CIQ complex from Woodlands unlike the old customs plaza which was easily accessible by foot from Singapore within 15min.

I was rather attracted by the majestic architecture of the buildings. I must say, it looks great! It is much larger than the Woodlands Immigration, more spacious and obviously it can handle a much larger number of people going through it with ease, as reported that the processing time per person was around 1 min only.

A little thing which is not in favour of me is that the complex is not within walking distance. Normally when I travel from Singapore to Malaysia, there is a bottle neck at the bus depot at the Woodlands Immigration, which caused me to walk across the Causeway rather than waiting 1 hour for the bus heading to Malaysia. Besides that, I'm rather happy with the journey from Singapore to Malaysia going through CIQ.

I've not tried going to Singapore from the CIQ complex yet, hence, I'm unable to really review how it is like. But I guess many of you would already have a little negative view on it due to the media coverage.

I guess I will have to use it first to head to Singapore, then only give my opinion, til then, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it is a nice experience.. Hehe..

Auntie用词不当

昨天到West Mall去逛逛，走进了间韩国店。

听见了掌店Auntie和员工的对话。

Auntie: “人家对我好，我也要对人家好，你讲是不是，做人要这样才对吗。。这叫做以牙还牙吗。。不可以人家对你好，然后你又对人家不好的。。对不对？！”

我听了Auntie说的话，突然忍不住笑了出来，店里的人都看着我！！哈哈。。。

新加坡Auntie的华语真的不是很好咯。。应该是 “礼尚往来” 才对吧。。什么以牙还牙呀？哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。

Why is it so hard to say?

“The thing you want to say most is often the hardest thing to say” adapted from pcbon’s blog “My Space and Time”…

Well, I totally agree with the statement actually. I’ve no objections to it. But then the question arises, why is this so? Why is it so hard for us to say the thing which we want to say the most? Since we want to say it so much, then why are we so afraid to say it at the same time? Why do we refrain ourselves subconsciously to say it?

I think the reason is because we care too much for somebody. When we want to say something so much, it also means that the person who will be affected by what we say is someone that we care very much. This someone can be another person and it can also be ourselves.

For example, if this person is a best friend or a lover. You may fear that what you want to say may somehow in the end be a burden to them. Or you maybe afraid that what you want to say may affect your relationship with the person until the relationship changes negatively. Thus, even if you feel it is very important to tell the person something, you are at the same very afraid to say it.

As I’ve mentioned the person who we care a lot can also be ourselves. For example, if you suspect that when you say something, it will indirectly affect your safety or your well being. Will you still say it? You may, but then it will definitely be something very hard to say even if you want to say it so much, right?

So, for the time being, I guess the best reason that I can come up with about why we can’t seem to say something which we want to say so much, is because we care too much for that special person.

喜欢一个人好累 - 泳儿

Excerpts from 思想变换 post from My Space and Time:-

"人能改变人, 人为因素" - pcbon

"除此之外的例子，是人们抗拒病魔，比如绝症，有人从绝症的阴影中勇敢地站起来，并抗拒了它的摧残，选择用乐观的心态面对它，这就是“心态”，思想在作祟~ 外人只能在旁给与援助，跟支持罢了~ 有了这些支持病者越能受到影响，增加好转的几率~" - pcbon

"是的，一个人影响他人，如果我没有遇到你，也不会变得那么长气的吧~" - pcbon

"Bon，文接得妥，感觉像是完成故事~哈；但是如果可以把“长气”改成“滔滔不绝”就比较好啦。。那teddy兄就不会到伤心的最高境界~~~ 状况很明显，teddy很在乎pcbon的用词~~哈哈~~为什么呢？心照不宣~~~;p teddy,要坚强，长气有很多好处的。。。比方说：吹气球...hahaha" - Layyen

"后来说的什么吹气球的，真是*&@#^$*;让我很想hoooot你！！hahaha.." - Ted

Basically the above are excerpts from one of the many interesting post from pcbon's blog. This time, we were discussing how one person is affected by others around the person.

In a funny way, you can actually see how this concept of one affecting others occur in real life. hehe.. The last two statement is rather obvious, when Layyen said something, then I feel like hitting her! hahaha.. So, that is how one person affects the other.

Below is a song which I feel is rather suitable for this discussion. It talks about what one guy did, from smiling, to walking passed her, all which affected her daily life and her mood. Have a listen and then think about whether the concept is true "Everyone is affected by others"... hehehe...

Xi Huang Yi Ge Ren Hao Lei - 喜欢一个人好累 - 泳儿

昨天　你送我一个笑脸
今天　你经过了我身边
每天　你这样一举一动
都影响我的悲伤喜悦

昨天　你多看了我一眼
今天　我有些心不在焉
那天　我才会有勇气
勇敢面对

暗恋　喜欢一个人好累
想像　你轻轻搂我的肩
走在　人挤人的街抓紧你的手
甜蜜无限
暗恋　喜欢一个人好累
流泪　在数不尽的黑夜
想念　变成了习惯想你一遍遍
你却好远

如果　你不当我是朋友
可是　极大重要的角色
是否　我就可以占有
你每个笑容

Three Teddy Conversation

Demonic Teddy: “Hey dude, why are your tears flowing? Did someone bully you again?”
Teddy: “I also don’t know… Just can’t control my tears”
Angelic Teddy: “Don’t be sad, what’s wrong? Tell me, maybe I can help”
Demonic Teddy: “Yea, tell us!! I’ll whoop the hell out of the bugger who dares bully you!!”
Angelic Teddy: “Hey Demon, do you need to be so aggressive everytime? Always busy with your ass whooping!!!”
Demonic Teddy: “Hey Angel, can’t you see he is crying? How much more serious can it be? Don’t tell me you want to talk sense into the bugger who made him cry!!”
Angelic Teddy: “Well, we don’t really need to solve the problems with aggression do we, we can always find other ways”
Demonic Teddy: “Yea right… I wonder which world are you from… This is Earth, people are cruel, they are not going to talk nicely and treat you properly!! Time to wake up angel!!! Can’t you see the humans are basically stabbing each other, shooting each other, not forgetting they are also bombing each other”
Teddy: “Hey guys, you don’t have to quarrel, I’m ok… Just a little down”
Angelic Teddy: “What’s wrong dear? Tell us…”
Demonic Teddy: “Yea, come on! Spit it out… I promise I won’t go easy with the moron!!!”
Teddy: “It’s nothing really… It was just the movie… Hearty Paws… I find the story very sad…”
Angelic Teddy: “Oh yea, I agree, the story was terrible… What a sad ending for So-Chan, he lost his sister and Snow who was like a sibling to them”
Demonic Teddy: “Oh My God!! A movie? That’s it? A freaking movie made you cry? Come on!! I’ve already got my triton ready to poke some butts!! And now you tell me it’s a movie??”
Teddy: “Demon, don’t you think the movie was a little sad?”
Angelic Teddy: “Yea, Demon, have some heart, didn’t you feel anything watching the movie?”
Demonic Teddy: “Oh puh-leezz…”
Teddy: “I can’t understand how uncaring the mother can be toward both of her children So-Chan and So-Yi, she didn’t even realized that So-Yi was dead”
Angelic Teddy: “Yea, too much thoughts of her career until she forgot about her two children, until So-Chan had to live on the streets and almost dying due to starvation. If it weren’t for Snow stealing breads for him, I guess he would have died”
Demonic Teddy: “Well, if it’s real life, then I can zap her with my demonic powers, but it’s a movie, I can’t do much dude..”
Teddy: “And that scene, when Snow passed away at the bus stop.. So-Chan called and called begging Snow to wake up but Snow just slept forever… It reminds me of Kitty, when she passed away… I caressed her cold body, hoping that she would wake up, but she never… Her fur was as smooth as usual… Just that she was extremely quiet that time…”
Angelic Teddy: “Don’t be sad, I know you missed all of them, they were your cats, they slept with you, played with you… You have feelings for them… You loved them, and they loved you too… You will always remember them and they will always remind close to your heart…”
Demonic Teddy: “Well… I bet they are living happily some other world now… Don’t be too sad”
Teddy: “Thanks guys….”
Angelic Teddy: “It’s 3 am already, you better go get some sleep…”
Demonic Teddy: “Yea, go get some sleep dude.. And please find me some bad guys so I can exercise some of my demonic powers on them yea!!”

PS: This is a very touching korean movie. Another one is "Little Brother" also a korean movie.

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好眼泪坏眼泪 - 歌手：徐若瑄

Hao Yan Lei Huai Yan Lei - Xu Ruo Xuan我曾 认真 深爱著一个人 他给我幸福的可能
我等 我问 未来何时发生 他只是给我一个吻
快乐 我哭 是因为你的手 曾答应带我向前走
难过 我哭 是因为我的手 找不到你说的以后
好眼泪 坏眼泪 我都曾为你流 感动和悲伤都是理由
只不过 在你不再爱我了以后 剩坏的眼泪慢慢流
快乐 我哭 是因为我付出 得到你温柔的答覆
难过 我哭 是因為我認輸 你的心永远留不住
好眼泪 坏眼泪 我都曾为你流 感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望 在我不再想你了之后 有好的眼泪慢慢流
好眼泪 坏眼泪 我都曾为你流 感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望 在我不再想你了之后 有好的眼泪慢慢流
有好的笑容陪著我

Hearty Paws (小雪)

Watched a Korean Movie at Saturday midnight. "Hearty Paws" was the title and it was the life of a boy (So-Chan/小灿) and his younger sister (So-Yi/小伊) with their new found family member (Snow/小雪).

So-Chan (~12yrs) and So-Yi (~5yrs) were living with their auntie as their mother was very busy with her work that she left them there while she worked in the city. Both of these children seldom get to see their mother and they lived a very modest life. Their father passed away when they were at an early age. So-Chan loved his sister a lot and was always there for her. If she wanted ice cream, he would walk miles back from school just to save the money from the bus fare to get her an ice cream. Even though So-Yi was angry and scolded him coz the ice cream melted. But being at such a young age, I think anyone of us would have missed the love So-Chan had for us which was more important when we saw the melted ice cream.

For her birthday, So-Chan stole a puppy for her which she later named Snow (Mauny). The puppy grew up with them. Slept with them. Ate with them. Their aunt and uncle decided to relocate one day and the uncle was reluctant to bring them along as they had already spend a lot on the two kids, hence leaving the kids behind. The two siblings and Snow lived together until an accident occured. It was winter and So-Yi accidentally wandered onto the frozen river with Snow. The thin ice broke, both fell into the freezing water but Snow was lucky enough to climb out. So-Chan saw the incident and was devastated. Because of that, he also blamed Snow for the death of his beloved sister. He hit and chased Snow away which caused Snow to live as a stray dog.

So-Chan then went to the city to look for his mother carrying So-Yi's favorite pink bag. At her house, So-Chan was tired and still overwhelmed by the death of his sister. His mother on the other hand was not aware about the incident and just spoke casually about work and was heading out. She left So-Chan 20 bucks telling him to go get some stuff for So-Yi, assuming So-Yi was wandering around in the streets outside before coming in. So-Chan was extremely sad with his mother's attitude. He left the house later and never went home. He lived on the streets and later joined a beggar syndicate which used kids to beg for money. He did not want to bring So-Yi's bag everywhere, so he left it in a street locker. Snow, now a stray dog, picked up So-Yi's scent and stayed at the locker, protecting it, chasing anyone who went close to it. This caused the authorities to attempt to capture Snow. So-chan, even though still hate Snow, decided to help it and brought it back to the syndicate home.

Later, the syndicate head who dislike Snow, use his own attack dog to attack snow until it was hurt seriously and then dumped at the road side. So-Chan who found out about this, was angry and hit the syndicate head and left the syndicate. So-Chan found Snow, seriously injured but was able to recover from the injuries with blurred vision. Both of them lived on the streets after that. So-Chan shared his food with Snow. When So-Chan slept, Snow would stay by his side to protect him. When So-Chan fell ill, Snow would steal bread from the bread shop for So-Chan to eat.

So-Chan was captured by the beggar syndicate head later. Snow tried to save him but was terribly attacked by the criminal. This time, he could not recover due to the extend of injury. So-Chan brought Snow back to Auntie's house to rest. But Snow wanted to go out to the bus stop where it used to wait for So-Yi to return home from school. Unfortunately, Snow was too weak to reach the bus stop, so, So-Chan brought it there. Snow took its last breath at the bus stop.

In his imagination, So-Chan saw So-Yi and Snow running together again and So-Yi said "Brother, Snow and I are living happily now, you must live happily too..."

Can you see it?

Can you see what I see? How?

The Day The Earth Stood Still

Today, I was a little emo. Hmm.. Wonder why... So, I made a sudden decision to go down to JB to catch a movie. I noticed today how dangerous I can be driving while being emo. In fact, I believe many guys when angry/emo or in a negative mood would be rather dangerous behind the wheels. I drove rather fast all the way down to town. A little reckless too. Overtaking, high speed at corners. Haha... Anyway, I reached the cinema and bought the tickets for "The Day The Earth Stood Still".

The storyline was superb for me. Graphics were nice. I must say that I haven't watch such a meaningful and splendid movie for quite sometime already. The movie itself was wonderful. But the meaning behind it was great, that's if you paid attention on the meanings rather than the hightech Genetically Organized Technical Robot or the handsome Keanu Reeve.

There are three very important meanings which can be found in this movie.

One, We often treat the unknown with hostility. This was shown when the alien being emerged from the orb and later shot by the armies when it approached the people even though it did not have any evil intentions. Doesn't this sound familiar? When you are not familiar with somebody, do you approach with extra caution until certain extend of discrimination towards the person? Just like the African students who study in Malaysia. Many people relate them to crimes, not knowing each one of them personally, do you feel scared of them when u see them in public?

Two, Humans are destructive beings. Now who can deny this?! Haha.. Humans have been destroying forest and wildlife for development. Humans are also killing each other. Look at the murder cases, and the war. Look at the Mumbai terrorist attack, the New York World Trade Centre, Bali Bombing, etc. We maybe the most advance being on earth but we are also the most destructive ones, endangering the other species on earth and also ourselves.

Three, at the brink of crisis, we change. No matter which civilisation, they will always reach a peak when they face their worst crisis and problems. It is under such situations, stress and pressure that they change to adapt to the new external conditions to live on. If the civilisation fails to change, then all will be too late. In the scientific point of view, this is call evolution due to selection pressure.

I personally found the message in the movie very mind stimulating and hence it is recommended that everyone catch this movie at your free time. Go with friends, it would be more fun. But I enjoyed watching the movie myself anyway. The guy sitting beside me slept through the movie on his girlfriend's shoulder though. I wonder whether the movie was boring or he was just taking advantage of the dark environment.. Hehe...
Nice Christmas decor in front of Harris. I love the snowballs. Rather disappointed with CS decor though because they used back last year's stuffs.

Choice of Life: Fact or Fiction

Some people say "Life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you will get until you open it".

Pcbon says "Life is like a glass of fruit juice, you make it yourself, add sugar and water to suit your taste".

So which is a fact and which is a fiction?

Well, I agree that life is really full of surprises. There are so many unknown scenarios in it. Things just happen without you planning. And even when you planned everything nicely, things just don't turn out the way you expected. So the first statement is true.

Pcbon's statement is not wrong either, depending on how you see it. As mentioned, many things will happen in our lives. Good things and bad things. Happy and sad. Then, it is up to you do decide how to accept it. In his statement, he mentioned the flavour of the juice being controlled by us. So, in this case, if something bad happened, you can try to turn it into your advantage or look at the bright side and be happy with it.

But if you look it as in you can control every aspect of your life by deciding everything, planning everything. Then, to me, it is not very true, as you can plan everything, but it doesn't really come out the way you have planned. You can't really control how sweet the juice should be just by adding sugar to it without knowing first the initial taste of the juice right?! As Layyen said, the taste of the juice by itself is an unknown factor.

So which statement is fact and which is fiction? I guess you will need to decide yourself as I don't really have an answer at the moment.

我要抱抱！！

我要抱抱！！

我不管！我不管！！我要抱抱！！！

我就是要抱抱。。

我不管啦。。我要抱抱！！

抱我啦。。我要抱抱！！抱。。抱。。。

我不管！我不管！！！我就是要抱抱。。。。

Memories Are Just Memories

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“Everybody wants a happy ending , so they write their own happy ending.” modified from Final Fantasy, said by Wakka, Yuna’s ex-guardian~and also ex-blitz ball player, going to be a father soon:).

“if we die trying to save some memories, we losing them all.” Said Wakka.

“but, what if it’s a very important memory?”said Rikku.

“memories are nice,but that’s all they are,an Al Bhed saying yea.”Wakka.

“memories are just memories.”

Adapted from "My Space and Time"
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Are memories just memories?

Is that what they are to you?

Gold and diamonds can turn to dust one day. But memories won't. They will always be in our mind, close to our heart. Accompany us through our daily lives.

Sweet memories, sad memories.

If the memory is important to you, close your eyes, visualise it. How would you feel? As though you are at that place? That time? That fragrant? That emotions? Tears flowing?

Are memories just memories?

If they are just memories, why would you smile thinking of someone you care or love? Why would you cry missing the ones you adore?

Why would you look at the pictures of certain people over and over again? Is it because of certain memories which lay behind the pictures? How did the memory urge you to do so?

So, are memories just memories...

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一九四三 世界大战
阿嬷年轻的时候
爷爷爱他那么多
他们感情很深
但是爷爷 身负重任
就在离乡的那夜
给了阿嬷一个吻
轻声说到

我要离去 别再哭泣
不要伤心 请你相信我
要等待 我的爱
陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天
我们牵著手在草原
听 鸟儿歌唱的声音
听我说声 我爱你

夕阳西下 鸟儿回家
阿嬷躺在病床上
呼吸有一点散漫
眼神却很温柔
看著爷爷 湿透的眼
握著他粗糙的手
阿嬷的泪水开始流

A Lending Hand

婆婆 "Harlo, le zai wulock seven ti toh lok boh?"
Teddy "wah erm zai leh auntie"
婆婆 "wulock 7 la, wulock 7.."
Teddy "Block 7 ah si Ward 7 auntie?"
婆婆 "Wulock 7, level 6 la, 你知道ti toh lok boh?"
Teddy "哦。。Block 7 啊。。就在前面而已。。直走就是了，可是要穿过那些建筑物。。"
婆婆 "哦！！！谢谢。。。谢谢。。。"
Teddy "Auntie，要我带你去吗？"
婆婆 "不用啦，不用啦，我慢慢走就可以了。。"
Teddy "我看我陪你吧。。"
婆婆 "不用啦。。我可以。。慢慢走就可以了。。"
Teddy "没关系，我也要走去那儿。。我带你。。。"
婆婆 "哈哈，谢谢啊，谢谢啊。。我今天第一次坐bus来这里，要看女儿，她脚受伤，要operate啦。。孙子讲要载我，我不要啦。。哈哈。。人要走才会吗，是不是，不自己走就不会了。。等下脚没力，要出来走走啦。。 哈哈。。"
Teddy "哦。。她是怎么受伤的。。"
婆婆 "不知道啦，脚不好啦。。。"
Teddy "Auntie,慢慢哦，要过马路了。。"
婆婆 "可以可以。。 我慢慢走可以的。。"
Teddy "我们在穿过这楼就是了。。"
婆婆 "可以了，我打电话，叫他们来带我，不麻烦你了。。"
Teddy "没关系。。"
婆婆 "aiyoo...怎么打不通，不可能记错的咯。。可能楼上不能开哦。。"
Teddy "那我带你去Block 7吧。。"
婆婆 "哈哈。。不用麻烦你啦。。"
Teddy "没事。。我带你去。。"
婆婆 "谢谢，谢谢"
Teddy "就是这里了，你知道几楼吗？"
婆婆 "他们讲六楼。"
Teddy "那你要坐电梯上去咯。。"
婆婆 "这里啊。。"
Teddy "是咯，需要我带你上去吗？"
婆婆 "不用了。。真是谢谢你，谢谢你。。"
Teddy "没关系啦，小心点。。 慢慢走哦。。"
婆婆 "知道，我可以，我慢慢走，可以的，谢谢。。"

In the current world, where everything is at a fast pace. Would you extend out a lending hand? Being in Singapore, frankly, I noticed people seldom do.

I wonder why, maybe it's because everyone is worried of being eliminated by others that everyone just think of their own matters. They don't bother about the rest. When people are having some difficulties, they will just walk pass you. I don't know why... Why people are so heartless sometimes? Because being helpful is a waste of their time? Or because they don't gain anything from it?

I'm not saying all Singaporeans are like that. But I'm saying that, in many places, Singapore or Malaysia, many are becoming like that. They just act as though they don't see you having difficulties. I myself had an experience of being lost, and when I asked, a person just act like he knows the place "Oh, this place is easy, it's over there.. just go there" while smiling but in fact, he pointed at the opposite direction... I wonder whether he really don't know, or he purposely wan.. hahaha..

Anyway... frankly, I like caucasians better.. they are friendlier and always trying to help, even when they are really busy.. they will just stop to help.. I wonder why Asians lose in this aspect? Why ah? I thought our Eastern Culture is supposed to be very noble.. not ah?

The Secrets to Kungfu by Master Po

Many people would think that kungfu is about kicking butts and body punching.

But the real kungfu is more than inflicting physical injuries to our opponents.

The real kungfu emphasizes not on how powerful you are physically to destroy others but how strong you are inside.

The real kungfu is about the practitioner learning about patience, control, courage, confidence and compassion.

Mantis had superb speed in his skills. He can attack you when you are blinking. But he had no patience. This handicapped him as he never evaluates and understands the situations before attacking making him fall into traps layed by enemies.

Tigress had unequal strength and power in her attacks. She can crush stones as though they were butter. But she had no control over her power and cause harm to others who were around her. She may have thought she was just touching others gently but to the rest, it was actually a powerful slap at their backs which could break their bones.

Viper was born without any fangs. Hence, she could not use her family's famous poison fang technique. Even though she had figured out a new technique which was equally perfect, but she had no courage to use it as it was not a family tradition. So nobody knew how powerful the technique was.

Crane was swift and agile. He could counter almost any attacks thrown at him. But he had no confidence in himself. He did not dare to show the rest his magnificent moves by going for the trials to sign up as a kungfu student which later could have made him officially a guardian of the village. So his talent remain hidden while he worked as a cleaner.

Monkey was known for his slickness. He could make you assume he was attacking from the left, but actually he will attack from the right. He defeated many opponents but he was not compassionate. He was not considerate to the others. He used his skills just to play tricks on others. The opponents he defeated were all hired by the villagers to get rid of him as they were annoyed by his irritating tricks.

From all these, you should know by now that even if you have magnificent skills and maybe formidable. Yet, if you have not these five characteristics, then you may not be as powerful as you may think.

-Courtesy of Master Po-

Teddy看A片 (Teddy watched porn)

Teddy: "Darling, 我有部影片要给你看，看了会很high的，真的很好看咧！！！"
小俊: "好啊，MSN transfer 给我吧。。"
Teddy: "ok"
小俊: "怎么突然会想要介绍我看A片？"
Teddy: "没有啦，觉得好看不就和你分享咯。。"
小俊: "哈哈。。ok"
Teddy: "喂，怎么MSN传不到的。。我email你吧"
小俊: "ok"
Teddy: "email send 了"
小俊: "收到了，我先去看一看"
Teddy: "哦"
小俊: "原来是医科的堕胎影片呀！"
Teddy: "是咯，好看吧！！哈哈。。有些学生看了，都呕了，觉得很恶心，但我觉得挺有趣的"
小俊: "还好。。我没呕咯。。"
Teddy: "你以为我有酱坏啊？看A片，又传给你看。。哈哈。。"
小俊: "没有啦。。"

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Teddy: "Darling, I got a nice video that I wana show you, you will get real high after watching it, really nice wan!!! hehe..."
小俊: "Ok, transfer me lor..."
Teddy: "ok"
小俊: "Why suddenly wana show me porn?"
Teddy: "No la, good things must share together mar.. hehe"
小俊: "Hahaha。。ok"
Teddy: "eh, MSN can't transfer leh.... I email you lor"
小俊: "ok"
Teddy: "email send already"
小俊: "Ok, got it, I go see see first"
Teddy: "oh.."
小俊: "Ceh, it's a medical clip about abortion ah..."
Teddy: "Ya lor, nice leh... hahaha.. some students watch ady, then vomit, they find it digusting, but I think it's quite interesting leh.."
小俊: "It's ok la, I didn't vomit.."
Teddy: "You think I very bad hor, watch porn somemore ask you to watch together.. hahaha"
小俊: "No laa..."

珍惜 (Cherish)

人类的弱点就是失去了才会珍惜。
为什么这是人类的弱点呢？
会令人感到伤痛的弱点。

珍惜是什么东西？
要怎么做才算是做到了珍惜？

要怎么才算是珍惜一个人呢？
是不是需要花多点时间在那人的身上呢？
这就是珍惜吗？

还是要花多点心思在那人的身上呢？
要怎么做才算是花多点心思呢？

太抽象了。。
这词，我不明白。。

Unable to truly cherish something until it is lost is all human being’s weakness.
But why does this have to be human being’s weakness?
The pain that comes with this weakness can be rather overwhelming.

What does cherish mean? How can it be define?
What should we do, only can it be considered as cherishing?

How do we cherish somebody?
Does it mean we must spend more time with the person?
Is that cherishing?

Or should we spend more effort and thoughts for the person?
But how is this defined too? What needs to be done to be considered more effort put it?

This is overly abstract..
I can’t comprehend this word called ‘cherish’…

Can I say it? (Amended Post)

If I say what Gon (black hair) did to Killua, what will others think of me?
Can I just innocently say something sincerely like what Gon did without others being taken aback or frightened by me?

In the present competitive world, people are exposed to many cunning schemes and ideas which caused many of them to lose their initial innocent and simple mind. Most people’s thinking/mind is much complicated now, and simple things are perceived as complex matters, indirectly complicates a lot of stuff.

Saying something which is not normally said, would, I guess, just make people feel that you have an underlying motive and evil intentions, don’t you think so?

泰迪很变态(Teddy is a Pervert)

“泰迪很变态”，嘉昌Dear-dear已经说过这句话很多次了。你们一定在想我到底做了什么事，让他这样地说我。

嘉昌：“你可以来载我吗？”
泰迪：“可以啊”
嘉昌：“你记得我家在哪儿吗？”
泰迪：“记得啊，我上一次不是送你回家吗，是Taman……Jalan…….”
嘉昌：“哇！你偷偷记下我的地址呀？变态！！”

就是这样咯，所以就被人讲是变态了。那天，逛玩后，我又送他回家，这是第二次。

嘉昌：“你真的很变态咧！回我家的路要转来转去的，可是你都能自己走，很象走过很多次酱，很熟悉这条路，完全不需要我指路”
泰迪：“哈哈。。走过一次了吗”
嘉昌：“变态！！”

在汉礼生日时，我负责载嘉昌，炜恒和启义到他家去。在路途中：-

嘉昌：“哇唠，你真是有够变态的咯，新年时只是去过汉礼家一次，就记得怎么去他的家了，奇怪叻你。。”
泰迪：“会吗？哈哈。。上次我要载文文兄回家，他也觉得奇怪，突然问我怎么会知道他家在哪儿，可是我们第一次见面时是我载他回的呀”
嘉昌：“当然啦！！载过一次就记得一清二楚，他一定会怀疑你是真的知道还是假的吗！”

哈哈！！所以，你们认为，我是不是很变态呢？

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“Teddy is a pervert”, my dear-dear JiaChang has said this many times. And I guess most of you would be wondering what have I done to be called a pervert.

JiaChang: “Can you come to fetch me?”
Teddy: “Can ah…”
JiaChang: “You remember where I stay?”
Teddy: “Yea, I sent you home once right, you are staying at Taman…. Jalan….”
JiaChang: “Wah!! You secretly memorized my address!! You PERVERT!!!”

This was the reason I was called a pervert. On that day, after we finished our little outing, I sent JiaChang home for the second time.

JiaChang: “You are really a pervert!! The road to my house needs to make a lot of turns, yet you can remember all of them, as though you have been here many times, you don’t need me to tell you the way at all”
Teddy: “Haha… We went through this way once already mar…”
JiaChang: “PERVERT!!!!”

On Hanley’s birthday, I was in charged of sending JiaChang, WeiHeng & kYi to his house. On the way to his house,

JiaChang: “Walao, you really pervert la!!! You have only been to his house once during Chinese New Year, yet you can remember clearly how to get to his house, weird leh you!!”
Teddy: “Weird meh? Hahaha…. Last time I wanted to send Bonbon home, then he felt weird also and suddenly asked me how come I knew where his house was, but then, I was the one who sent him home when we first met mar…”
JiaChang: “Of course la!! Send once then can remember all the roads already, sure he will wonder how come you can remember the way laaa!!”

HAHAHHA!!! So, what do you guys think? Am I really so pervert???

Happy Birthday: Dearest Brother

As the clock strikes 12, this signifies the beginning of a very special day, and I would like to tell everyone a short story about a great friend... Here goes....

He shines brightly in the darkest night
He shines through even when dark clouds are around

He brightens up everyone’s life with sparkling stars

His kindness is stronger than a blast from the supernova

His heart is more beautiful than any stars in the universe

Even though he is as mysterious as the deep space

But without his presence the night sky won’t be as beautiful as it is now…

Happy Birthday Brother… Hope your wishes come true on this wonderful day…

Source: All photos are from NASA.

时间的玩笑

题目不是巧合，是从平柽哥哥那儿抄的。

他离开泰莱了，我自己也离开双威有一年了。
很多事就像他所说的，都变了，都生疏了。
自己本身是个很感性的人，很容易被感动，流泪。
曾经回到双威去，看一看在那儿交的朋友，但是很多都和以往不一样了。
发现以前的情分都只是工作上的一种需求，而不是发自内心的友情。
伤心？如果我说没有，那是假的啦。

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辞职
失业
找到新工作
搬家
要开始上班
开始新生活
车祸
丈夫过世
头部锋了五十多针
至今头部还是没感觉
四岁女儿没事
但是被丈夫兄长领养
再过几天女儿会离开身边出国住

离开双威一年，这就是其中一位朋友所经历的。
听见了，我伤心，为她感到难过。
虽然她能笑着把一切都说出来，但是她心里的痛苦又有谁能了解？

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说到时间，真的过得很快，
想想，是不是应该放下某些东西，
离开某些事物，
但是放下了，离开了，
会过得开心吗？
像平柽说的失去了才会珍惜是人的弱点。。

自己知道自己的性格还是和以往一样，没什么变到。
朋友都说，我还是那样的傻傻，像小孩子一样，很喜欢扮可爱。
是不是应该改了呢？
身边的人，很多都变了，都因为环境而改变。
有些变得无情，
有的为新的环境和目的而寻找其他新的朋友了。

自己呢？还是要傻傻地紧握着以前吗？
我不是个喜新厌旧的人，
真诚的友情，我不会放手，
真心的朋友，我不会遗忘。

以前刚认识我时，那些人都会一直笑我像小孩儿，
有些因此离开了我，
有些却真诚地接受了我，成了好友。

但是世界是很残酷的，
只要你和他人不同，
就会被排斥，
所以应该改吗？
还是做回自己？

他

一个星期日的下午，有位不明博客在我这小小部落格留言。读了她的留言，让我感到非常开心。在一篇文章里我描述了一个人，她误解了这人的身份。虽然，她所说的不是事实，也不可能发生，但是我的心里的确是有想过如果他的身份是像这位博客所说的会有多好。

想一想，我认识他也有一年了。去年，大概是六月，我无意中找到了一个部落格，读了里头的内容，发现这位作者所写的文章都很特别也很有趣，就在那儿发表了自己的小小意见。过后，这位作者有为我所发表的意见做出了回应。过后，我们俩就一直到彼此的部落格，阅读彼此的文章与留言。也就因为这样，我们俩就在网上认识了。

没记错的话，七月时，我就大胆地把这位不明作者输入在MSN户口。很奇妙的，第一次想和他聊天，他就已经猜出了我的身份，知道是我，‘泰迪’。有可能是因为彼此都不认识对方的关系，所以，没什么话好和对方说。我们的对话都很简单。只是问候对方，问一下对方在做些什么，聊一聊部落格里所写的课题。通常我们的对话都很快结束的。

七月时，他就到吉隆坡读书了。我们还是有在彼此的部落格留言和偶尔在MSN聊天，保持联络。有可能是因为他刚刚开始读书的关系吧，那时的话题都专注于读书的问题，用什么课本等等。我们也有在MSN里玩Sudoku。记得那时，我真的不会玩这数学游戏也不曾玩过，但是他还是叫我试试看。玩到最后，我是输了。但是我很清楚他一直在放水，没把分数的距离拉得太远，真是个君子。

虽然，我们俩都不曾见过面，但是从他部落格所写的文章和他在我的网页所留下的意见，我一直都觉得他是个非常特别的人。在我见过的人当中，他是独一无二。他的思想，成熟度都和他人不同，非常让我尊敬。不管是什么事，他都能以不同的观点和思想来分析，看出了其他人所忽略的细节。他的思维是我所不及的，也因此让我感到万分的敬佩。所以，我也很想认识这个在我心里留下深刻印象的人。

到了十二月，我们俩终于有机会见面了。在圣诞节前几天，我和他，还有他的几位朋友一起去看了部电影。第一次见面，说真的，还真是不知该说些什么，在MSN都没什么话说了，在现实生活就更糟了。看电影时，还有电影当主题，我们俩一直在猜故事情节。走出电影院后，哇，我还真是哑口无言咧，很多时候，只是静静地看他和朋友聊天。我性格本就孤僻，他那些朋友我都没见过，也没在网上聊过，真的是不知道要和他们说些什么，就老是粘着他咯，但是我也有尝试和他那班朋友尝试聊一聊咯。还好啦，但是现在觉得自己有点像Wall-e咯。

第二次见面是农历新年前几天，我们俩又去看电影了。虽然第一次见面时不是很多话说，但是还是很期待见到他。到了电影院，四处张望，终于看到了他。我问‘嗨！还有谁来？’；他说‘只有我们俩’。心想，天啊，如果我没话说，不是会闷死他！上次，没话说了，还有他朋友陪他。这次怎么办？看了戏后，我们就在百货公司里逛逛。这次，很奇妙的，我们俩没那么紧绷，还是有挺多东西聊的。我们从楼上，走到楼下，又不知不觉，从楼下，走到楼上，整个百货公司，我们走了两遍。还记得，要回家时，我问他是否要我送他回家。他就说‘你知道我家在哪儿吗？’第一次见面时，是我载他回家的咯，怎么会不知道咧？哈哈。。可爱吧？ 那时，也有想到为何我们会一起出门。毕竟，我们俩都是在网上认识的，对彼此的来历都不了解，为什么还会和陌生人一起出门呢？而且又只是我们俩而已，不怕被人吃了都不知发生什么事吗？他不怕被我吃吗？

见了两次后，我们俩在MSN的对话也比较多了，话题也增加了。其实第三次见面应该是在吉隆坡的，因为他邀请我和他同学去展览会。但是由于计划上出了点状况，最后我不能去了，更糟的是，我们俩是在活动的前一天才知道的，所以我也就决定回新山。在路途中，他打了电话给我，问我到底在哪儿，根据原本的计划，那时我应该是得到他家去的，但是因为情况有变，所以我就做了个仓促的决定，回新山，他一听到我说我决定回新山时而且又已经在路途中，他突然静了一下，一时反应不过来，过后才说了一句‘对不起’。但是完全不是他的错啦，活动又不是他安排的，哪儿知道突然有人不允许我去喔。第三和第四次见面是在他的好友去拜访他时。那时他邀请我陪他们两天。所以，那两天，他带我们到处兜风。对了，那时也是他第一次骂我的时候。他在MSN邀请我陪他们，但是我有点儿担心，所以一时也不知是否要和他们出门吗，因为，孤僻的我，有时会变得特别的静，搞到很冷场，所以怕扫大家的兴。就因为想了太久，所以被他骂了。呵呵。。第五次见面是在朋友的排队。第六次是在吉隆坡。就是这样，我们只见过六次面。最后一次见面时，也是他第二和第三骂我。第二次骂我是因为我做不出决定，是否要到他家住。本来是决定要去了的，但是过后知道他在考试，所以担心会妨碍到他读书，也因此犹豫不决。他就因为这样而骂我，说要来就来，想那么多干吗！哈哈。。第三次骂我是因为我跟他开玩笑的关系，哈哈。。

虽然，见面的次数很少。但是，每次见到他，或是和他交谈，都会在他身上发现一些东西，让我更尊敬他。我一直都觉得这人的心和思想都深不可测，有时无法理解为何他能以不同的观点去对待一件事，更是无法去猜测他下一步会做些什么，脑海里想的又是什么。还没和他见面时，曾经和老朋友聊关于他，朋友读了他的部落格也和我有同感，他的思想真的是独具一格。

最近，也看过他的日常生活是怎样的，看到他是如何地照顾自己，打点一切，以他的家庭背景，能够办到这一切，真是非常佩服他，更是让我觉得自己有多么的渺小，多么的差劲，根本都比不上这个人，要向他学习的还真是不少。虽然年纪比他大，但是，懂的东西却远远在他之下。他的细心，为别人着想的态度，开朗的性格，等等，都是我所没有的。我不是要和他比些什么，我只是想说，他这人真的与众不同，很值得我尊敬。

虽然以前因朋友背叛而有了阴影，难让别人接近，难相信别人，和他人在一起时缺乏安全感，但是他却完全没给我这种不安的感觉，我根本没有想过要去怀疑他，对他也没有猜疑。到底是为什么？我还真是不知道。有可能是他诚恳的态度，他的微笑，让在他周围的人都知道，他是个好人，好朋友吧。。。

我知道自己不善于表达自己，有时候言行举止都让别人感到我这个人有点奇怪。我相信他也可能有这种感觉。因为上次，寄了个SMS给他，只是想说不要在读书时给自己太大的压力，因为之前有和他聊过关于读书的事，从他的语气，我心里是觉得他给自己的压力有时会有点大，所以因担心而寄那SMS，没想到过后被他笑。哈哈，我是没什么啦，只是有时会有点不知所措，不知该说某些话吗，还是该做某些事吗，等下说了做了，他觉得我很奇怪，误会我，以为我对他有恶意还是神经病，那我不是会很惨？有可能自己是个修炼千年的泰迪小熊，刚化成了人形，所以还不是很明白人类之间相处的道理和规则吧。。。