How does it feel to be insulted by a friend?

Recently, I found out something which made me very uneasy. I understand the fact that where there are people, there will always be gossips. I admit I can't avoid that, neither can any of us. I can't control their mind, neither can I stop their mouth.

Anyway, since a long time ago, I have cultivated an ability which allow me to not take into heart the words said or things done by people who are not my friends. This people can be people whom I know of their existence or just mere strangers. They can do whatever they want, say whatever they want and I won't feel a single thing at all.

I only take deeply the words of my friends seriously, especially those whom I treat as close friends. Every advice they give, I try to understand and try to learn. Every opinion they give, I will take into consideration and discuss how to apply it. I've learned a lot from my close friends.

As such, the words of my friends or close friends can also affect me a lot unfortunately.

As I've said, I don't mind what other people say about me, think about me, they can gossip whatever they want and I won't mind. I won't bother much. I will just smile, though occasionally I won't be happy but as long as I know I have my close friends around me. I don't mind all this.

But how does it feel if I find out that people that I treat as friends actually got involved in spreading rumors about me? I guess the answer is obvious.

Well, some people would say they were joking and stuff. But, they aren't a 5 year old child anymore. They aren't uneducated. They should have the mind to figure out what can be said and what cannot be said even in jokes.

Somethings when being joked around and spread will cause a lot of misunderstandings and screw up others' lives. Have you all gave some thought about that? Or it's mere amusement and fun for you all that the others' lives are not important?

I know people will say "Oh, you can't blame me, it's your actions which lead me to think that way, if you didn't act that way, then nobody would have thought it that way".

At the same time, I can say "I can do whatever I want, but as long as you trust me, you wouldn't be thinking negatively of me, as you are not supposed to judge a book by its cover, and am I not your friend?"

Recently, I'm a little disappointed that people I treat as my friends are involved in spreading rumors whether it is intentionally or unintentionally.
One, they are my friends, they should have known better to do so;
Two, they are educated, they should have the maturity to know what is right and what is wrong; Three, for some who are taking certain courses related to human relations, shouldn't you people know better about this?

I believe that God has always planned a lot of things for everyone of us. And this is one of the challenges he planned for me.

At the worst of times, I have gained many good things at God's grace. And I believe that through this harsh times, I will also gain many more good insights to life.

I definitely thank God for every opportunity that I've been given.

And I would like to thank my real friends who stayed by my side throughout the hard times

And I would like to thank those who tried and are still trying to hurt me because I learn to be stronger by the day.